Divided loyalties. They suck. Usually liking more than one city is not a big deal, but to the insecure of Toronto, apparently it is a big deal.
Last week, I went to Montreal for a few days. Part of it was to visit family. Part of it was to meet up with friends. The highlight of it was definitely watching the Habs come back from behind to win the game, in the company of fun people, surrounded by people are predominately Habs fans. Living in Toronto, it's near impossible, to openly and unabashedly cheer for the Habs at a sports bar without the risk of harrassment.
I have this habit of saying, "I'm going home" whenever I tell others that I'm going to Montreal. Most people nod and say "oh." Or at most ask, "Where's home." BUT for some reason, a large contingent of my close friends (not all of you, and you know who you are) find this offensive. I get a barrage of angry comments. A small sampling include:
TORONTO is your home.
You've lived in Toronto almost 5x longer than you lived in Montreal. Stop calling it home.
It sounds better to say you're from Toronto.
There's nothing special about Montreal so I don't know why you like to say you're from there.
Why do you people refuse to understand? It's not that I don't love Toronto. Believe me, I do. There are lots of fabulous reasons to be in Toronto and I contribute to the city in as many ways as I possibly can -- often times, even beyond what I can. BUT MONTREAL IS MY HOMETOWN! And that will never change. My brother is the perfect adopted Torontonian. He loves the Leafs. He loves the Jays. If he never has to leave the Tdot, even on holiday, he'd be totally okay with that. But that's not me.
My brother has no real ties to Montreal anymore. When we were kids, the biggest highlight for him about going to Montreal was to see our Gran. My brother, being the oldest son of the oldest son, in a very traditional and hierarchal Chinese family, was Gran's favourite. My gran moved to Toronto a few years after we did so the appeal of Montreal no longer existed for my brother. She was now a full 10-minute walk from us. My biggest highlight was visiting my Uncle - my Dad's younger brother. He is my favourite uncle. And (as I've always been led to believe) I'm his favourite niece. There's something about the bond we have... we don't talk much, but we know when it's time to go down to Schwartz to get smoked meat, or when it's time to eat ice cream, and (as I got older) who's turn it was to pick the wine at dinner. And yes, my uncle, still lives in Montreal.
I have always felt at home in Montreal. I come and go as I please. I don't need permission to visit. No one needs to take me sightseeing or babysit me. And... I have my own friends there. I'm not a "visitor." I'm just "coming home." I know Toronto better than I know Montreal in terms of where things are located, how to get around, what's happening in what neighbourhood, etc...but it's not about the 411. It's about the way I feel when I'm in Montreal. I can't explain it (though I have deigned to try in this blog).
I don't know if I will ever move back to Montreal permanently (although I actively look for employment there, it's not the only city where I look), but no matter where I am in the world, Montreal is the first place I call home. Toronto is a very close second but it will never replace my hometown.
So, to my dear friends who constantly feel the need to "correct" me, let me just set the record straight once and for all.
I don't love you or this city any less just because Montreal is the place where I feel most at home.
You and Toronto are very much an important part of my life
but that is independent of the "hometown" issue.
Don't forget...I'm Anglo, not Franco, BECAUSE I grew up in Toronto.
BUT
Nothing will ever change the fact that I have a
blue birth certificate where the French words preceed the English.
Nothing in Toronto will ever taste better than Schwartz's smoked meat.
Toronto doesn't know how to make bagels.
The Habs will always have more Stanley Cups than the Leafs.
Old Montreal. 'Nuff said.
I know we think we have poutine here in Toronto, but really... we don't.
I prefer the view from St. Joseph's over the view from the CN Tower.
And Montreal will always be number 1 in my heart.
HOWEVER
Loving Montreal does not mean I hate Toronto.
So... since I don't ram my love for Montreal down your throats,
I'd appreciate it if you'd reciprocate the courtesy
and stop trying to tell me what to feel and which city to call home.
There's nothing wrong with loving two great cities. And I don't think this is a big deal at all, but with all your chatter, you force me to have to explain myself. And honestly... that's the part I don't like.
Keep this bitchiness up, and I'm gonna start calling New York City my home. 